Do you ever have one of those days where nothing seems to be going your way? I am having one such day today. It’s just small things, but sometimes those things add up pretty quickly. Projects that need to be done for work are being held up; I didn’t sleep well and I am just generally tired and frustrated.
I’ve changed my daily prayers from those of thanksgiving to those asking God for favors.
Then I remembered something that Pope Francis said about God: “He is not a wizard.” I know that my prayers are hollow because I can feel it. I feel guilty asking God for favors because I know it’s not the way to pray. He is not there to magically make all of my problems go away.
A day like today reminds me that not everything is in my control. For example, I can’t will myself to feel more awake. And those projects that are due for work? I have to wait until I get all the pieces together before I can finish them.
All of these minor frustrations change the way I pray so much that it astonishes me. When I’m frustrated, instead of leaning in to God and letting him take control, I wallow and dwell on those things that are not going right. It’s a habit I hope to break.
Do you find that you sometimes pray to God as if he were a wizard or a genie that grants wishes?