Today, I woke up with a wicked stomachache because I filled myself with muffins instead of eating a normal dinner last night. At the time, I knew it was a bad idea, but yet, I felt a hunger inside of me and they looked so delicious just sitting there. But having them made me literally sick.
I was telling one of my friends about what I had done, and I realized through the conversation that I was trying to fill a void I had inside myself with something that was not good for me—namely food that I shouldn’t have stuffed myself with. It’s something I have a habit of doing.
Whenever I feel lonely, sad, depressed, or even bored, I try to fill myself with something. It made me think of all the things we can fill ourselves with – food, material goods, alcohol, drugs, even things that seem neutral at first glance, like expensive coffee drinks or items we love to collect, like books or movies or video games.
But we don’t need to turn to these things that only bring happiness and fill us for a moment when we have something much greater, actually, someone much greater to turn to—God.
The past few weeks I have been looking up some inspirational quotes to hang on my wall, and this one seemed appropriate to find today. It’s from C.S. Lewis and it says, “If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world.” That’s so true. Only God can fill us up and make us feel whole.